Should I go back to work?

Hi Friends, 

While I’m always transparent with you, I’m going to get a bit more personal here today. 

Despite all the positive self-talk and true belief that I’m currently living the path I’m destined to be on (twist and turns and ditches), I’ve had a lot of doubt creep in recently. 

A really heavy thought has been weighing on me these last few weeks, and that’s whether or not I should go back to work. 

Yep. I said it. 

This idea has been looming dark in the depths of my thoughts for over a month now. While the recent event I attended, Be You Brand Live, pulled me up and gave me a boost in confidence and additional tools to take my business to the next level, the truth is, these dark feelings have been swirling about my head.

In my last newsletter, I dropped a piece of advice from my mentor, Ati Grinspun: 

 “The more uncertainty you can take, the more opportunity you will have.”

And I truly believe that. 

The fact behind this heavy idea of returning to work boils down to one thing: MONEY. For me, it’s about having additional cash reserves and working capital. And right now, I feel fucking tapped out.

I could write a eBook on the how and why it happened, but to keep it simple, my earliest real estate deals didn’t work out like I anticipated. Whether I got stuck with more equity in rentals than anticipated or flips turned into rentals, a significant portion my cash reserves are now invested in my biggest learning lessons. 

And let me be clear, the money isn’t lost. It’s invested in 3 rental properties. But I can’t see it (like in my bank account!) and that scares the shit out of me. Old money beliefs die hard, friends. And clearly, mine still aren’t dead LOL.

So, the question is, how much uncertainty am I willing to hold?

The fact is, my additional reserves are plentiful, but I’m having a hard time seeing my business finances through a different light than the one I’ve held onto so tightly since I open my first checking account at the age of 12.

So, in light of all this self-made drama, I’ve been sitting with my thoughts and God a lot lately. I believe that I surrendered to his path for me long ago in this journey, but I’ve been praying through many tears for some additional signs. Do I keep going? Or is it time to re-evaluate and redirect my focus a bit? 

My husband put an affirmation in front of me 7 days ago and it reads: 

“I always have more money than I need, And I can’t help but attract more money into my life.”

The advice given is to repeat this affirmation 3X daily, for 7 days, and report back the effects. 

So, friends, I leant into it, and take a look at what happened: 

·      10/18: ideal STR property went live on the MLS and I submitted an offer that very day! Didn't get it, but the opportunity was presented!

·      10/22: multiple showing requests came in for our flip property after a quiet 3 weeks

·      10/24: my partner notified me of a potential wholesale lead. Again, not worth it, but the opportunity was there!

·      10/25: I received a direct-seller lead from one of my previous sellers, the woman who owned the Cal City building!

·      10/25: I was approved for a business line of credit, at a value of $60,000! Amen 🙏.

All be damned, the real estate opportunities started rolling in...

If I’m putting the signs together correctly, I’m thinking God is telling me to exercise some more patience and keep “doing the hard thangs,” right?!

Dog gone affirmation worked. I’m sitting here with an additional 60k in business credit ready to make opportunities happen.

So, remember what I talked about in my last post regarding unlocking limitless beliefs?!

Despite all the recent shitty thoughts in my head, somehow those positive affirmations and self-talk WON OUT. Good things are happening. Now, it’s up to me to determine just how much uncertainty I’m willing to take. And if my mentor's right, if I expand my uncertainty level, the opportunities that will take me to the next level will come knocking at my door. 

So, with that, be kind to yourself…talk positively, evaluate the negative feelings, and find where you feel safe with your level of uncertainty. 

Let’s work on this together, cuz I'm not giving up on this journey. ☺️ 

Tess 😘